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I cried. Omg i cried. I can imagine the effect it had on people who are or have been at the weight that some of the contestants were at.. I was never more than35lbs overweight at any point in my life, so for people who have struggled significantly with hteir weight throughout their lives, it msut have been very emotional. I was at work, balling. People would come in, and i was like “Biggest Loser finals..its amazing what they’ev accomplished” and then they laughed at me. lol

Anwyays, whats her name, Ally?.. looked AMAZING! OMG shes ripped!! Like omg!! She was kinda cocky huh? Totally knew she was gonna win..lol i loved it!!

Anyways, a very emotional show at a pretty vital point of my attempt to get sexy. I was so glad i got to watch it.

I wonder how their days are at the ranch though. Liek how long do they work out and what do they do with the restt of their time? How much sleep do they get? What is their diet like? I love love to see what their workout sessions are like.

Anwyays, grats to Ally and to all of us who have decided to go on this journey to make a better us!

Ok so yesterday went well, i think it was easy cause i slpet in so late tho!! LoL. I didnt get any exercise in cause i was feeling extremely ill, hence really tired and jsut wanted to sleep. Sill not feeling great, but ill bring my weights to work and try and get a run in afterwyards.

SO yesterday - wholewheat pasta/pasta sauce/cheese; multigrain cheerios; tilapia fillet/carrots/weight wwatchers chocolate caramel bar (so freaking good!!); home made blueberry muffin; lettuce/cuccumber/tomato/little bit of ceasar dressing

What sucked was that i really coulnt really and truly taste anything - so i used my imagination and it was all fabulous!! LoL

Didnt have much access top the computer during my trip I did alright with the eating.  not great, but it could have been much much worse. Im still holding 135. I was under that when i left for Quebec, but im still happy with holding my last ‘tracked’ weight.  I went running with my father. My 50 year old father. He’s insane. Absolutely insane. The man runs 5 k in 25minutes..or maybe i think 23. So we go running. Im under the impression that we are leaving my aunt’s running to whereever and comming back to my aunts. But all of a sudden, we are in like the country. Im talkin like, runnin by barns and fields. Im like wtf? Train track is comming up he says ‘we’re almost half way’. Im expecting to turn around, he keeps going! He’s insane. Let me tell you the man took me to another TOWN…. to his cousins house. Soemthing like 7k. I was goign to kill him. I kept telling him i had to stop… my father is french military. He wouldnt let me. If i had known i wasnt going to have to turn around to run all the way back it wouldnt have been so bad!! But anwyays, it was so brutal. So now i have to train like crazy so next time i go home i can demolish him!!! LoL. He rubbed it in so bad!! It was a great weekend tho!!

Going to start posting HARD again tomorow with my Accountability posts again… gonna start at Day1 - Week 4, keeping in mind that Week 3 was a write off.

How’s evryone doing?

Im leaving right after work for a 4-5 hour drive, i gotta leave as soon  as possible, SO im doing my strength training at work LOL - and then ill get home and go for a run (which always wake me up instead of tiring  me out) and then go for my drive!  This is kinda fun lol..got some chiken for afterwards - WOOT!

How’s evryone doing today?

So, ive decided to track my progress using a spreadsheet, which ill jsut post daily for my Accountability Post.  Still havent got back on officially - will do tomorow… I PROMISE! No excuses. Ive done my grocery shopping for the week. Oh i wanted to add.. this was a problem for me and i thik i solved it. So when i was at the end of my second week of eating right, i was like getting really tired of the same old thing (food), but its expensive to buy a wide array of foods at once, especially healthy crap. SO, every week, im going to buy a few things in bulk just enough for the one week and plan my diet for the week and then completely switch it up the next week and try some new things out and so on…  Anwyas, here is my chart, im kinda pumped about it. Oh yea, and to make sure i dont get lazy with all the details in my chart, all the foods for the week are precalculated in the servings in which i will be eating them so i have easy access to the information for my chart and dont have to check it all out evrey day!

So yeah, thats its. Im gonna save my charts on a daily and keep them in a folder. I swear when this is all done and over with, i will print every chart , and every blog and every updated picture and some of the home pages of my buddies! and but together a fun momento binder so that i never forget!! Im going to Quebec for liek 4 days and  my father is going to be there and he is SO hardcore.. the man is 50 and runs 5k in an hour every other day… anwyas. i will have ONE cheat meal GUARANTEED - you aint tried pizza till you been to a nice family pizzaria in Quebec…its unreal - ill take a picture - you wont believe it.. LOL

Hope eeryone is hanging in there!!

kSo this job.. like an actual career job that i want and had high hopes for may not be going as well as i initially thought it would. Listen to this.

So, i left a message with the assistant to the executive director of the organization. She called my house back (i didnt know). I called back again to ask them something and it turns out she was in her office, she told me to hang on a second and came back on the line and said “is that your number”? I said “im sorry?” cause i didnt know what she was tlaking about. She told me she called my house and that she got a monkey sound as the answering machine. Humiliated i apoligized and said my roomates must have played with the machine. So she said what she had to say and we hung up.  This organization is one that deals with helping skilled, internationally trained immigrants settle into Canada. The assistant to the executive director is black. She called someone back who wanted a job with her organization and got monkey sounds on an answering machine… Now i am totally NOT prejudiced against anyone (my man is jamaican), but can yuo imagine how that looks? 

I decided to call her back and i explained that i wasnt comfortable with the impression i may have left with her. That i apoligized for the ‘immature’ answering machine message and assured her that it is not reflective of myself and would have never left the house number there if i knew such message was being displayed and that i didnt want that image to stick with her. I told her it would be a shame to get get this job in which i really think i would do very well in because of this.

She said “Okay”. And i said “okay”. and she said “okay”. And i said “okay, thanks, bye”

Ugh… im so depressed.  This is really bad right? Dont sugar coat it people. Id rather not get my hopes up.  It is a bilingual position, which i am, fluently and learning spanish, and i have the education, work experience, and a pretty dman good cover letter and resume, but i dont know…. i DID subsequently leave a message on the executive director’s voice mail telling him that i HAVE talked to some of his people but that i know he is doing the hiring and so wanted to introduce myself. I dont know, im so upset. Ive been doing research about the orgization and came up with so much, it’d really be a shame if this was a ‘lesson learned’.

sad this calls for sushi

So today it starts again - Week 3 will be high intensity. Gonna do my run and circuit 1 with heavier weights. Gonna get some exercises done at work and walk around the hotel a few times going up and down the stairs cause its really not busy. th bf pissed me off so this will probly help keeping my mind off of him too for now, instead of dwelling.

Feelin’ good…

Oh yeah i refure to weigh myself until thursday lol

So i managed to stumble into work after last night… oh my goodness gracious… this weekend = write off…. good news, i didnt even really eat at the restaurant.. got a salad and it was nasty… so i had a drink… oh but then i had many…mant more drinks….ohhhhh godd…its been too long, i dont know how i used to do it…thank god i dont drink anymore hardly ever… anwyays, today is going to not be great, but im definately bback on tomorow… i knowits a delayed and extended intermission but it is what it is… omigod im still drunk and feel like im going to die… lol

I dont think ill post much today - working on getting this job - doing some serious research - take care all!

Sanj

So today was a bust. LoL. And im not beating myself up over it, even though i feel disgusting but it was so good.

I did good up to lunch, then i had a niec dinner (i wont bother going through the healthy stuff, cause the calories are off the charts in terms of what i should be having - and besides its intermission *giggle*

So i get home - and thebox of chocolate hit - well i had quite a few - i dont even know 6? 7 maybe? no clue. Then at 11:30pm sandra decided she wanted a slice of pizza from pizza pizza WITH garlic dip… so she got it. lol   Of course i shouldnt be doing it… so what happens, i drop it on the ground.. Please BELIEVE i picked it up and brushed it off and ate it!! lol

Well it was fun ladies. Was it worth it? I would say no, but i dont regret it. It is hat it is. tomorow is the restaurant/birthday party (hence drinking). At first i was like “i might as well jsut msss up my weekend!’, but i dont evenwant to anymore.  Im gonna eat light calories during the day to make room for dirnking calories, and a salad at dinner and run adter work before i go out. Back in action - so TECHNICALLY (because its my diet and i say so :)  Day 1 - Week 3 starts tomorow with the stepping it upness on exercise

Good lord chocolate and pizza has never been so good!! lol

Feeling so crappy now i can feel the garbage siting in my stomach… NOT stepping on the scale until next wednesday or thursday and skipping my weigh in tomorow..

Night all!! And id like to shout out to my girl Amy who weighed in today in the middle of the day after eating AND drinking water and despite that still being 5 pounds lightr than when she started!! Keep it up girl! Things are lookin up! Take advantage of it!

And thanks to everyone who hypes me up and leaves grat comments and posts… they definately make me no wanna do what i did tonight again… nice timing michelle!! lol

 Night

So i got this diet thing on point and i will keep blogging my accountability blogs (one more week till its a habit!! or so they say); i will now be blogging my activity as well… i need to step up my exercise and document it properly… ive got a notebook for it, but ill definately add it to my accountability blog and hopefully thatll help me go hardcore on it all.

Im pumped so tomorow i got a run to the university and back RAIN OR SHINE! My best time has been in 43minutes - but after my run with the boyfriend yesterday, im thinking ill be able to improve a little maybe!!